Day 8....post Christmas cookies :(

Chris is out doing some last minute Christmas shopping and I just finished my workout and am about to finish up some wrapping. I'm feeling some shame tonight because I allowed myself a Christmas treat and even counted the calories in my daily intake but then lost control and had 3 other treats after dinner knowing it would put me over my calories. Thankfully, I didn't go overboard like I'm capable of AND I chose to do 20 minutes of fast pace interval training. Tomorrow's a new day!!!

Goals met:
Calories: OVER 1500
Workout: 20 minutes (warm-up & interval training)

Abundance is...getting a surprise call from Brit this morning on my way to work!

Day 7....

Cinnamon sticks, cloves and slices of oranges simmering on the stove sure do fill the house with the most amazing fragrance! Definitely a Christmas smell.

When I got home from work, Mimi informed me that Brit had done my Dustin DVD workouts this morning using my 5 lb weights, ha! And she jumped at the chance to do them with me again this afternoon. I wish you could've seen her working out next to me, trying to keep up with Dustin! PRECIOUS! I was SO happy to get my 20 minute workout in BEFORE dinner.

The kids and I had movie night complete with a pizza & veggies picnic on the living room floor and ELF playing! I hate Chris wasn't home (working late and still not home) to enjoy it with us.

I counted every calorie that went into my mouth today and still managed to stay out of the chocolates at work. It's so funny to me that when I'm on, I'm ON! But when I fall off the wagon, I'm completely OFF! I haven't been tempted since I started blogging last week.... it's been so helpful to write about this process.

Goals met today:
Calories: 1500 exactly (lots of carrots, celery sticks and strawberries with my pizza)
Workout: 20 minute strength training

Abundance is...4 more days until Christmas!

Day 6....

I'm emotionally spent today from various things going on and decided I needed a mental health night for my sanity. So I'm sitting on the couch by the tree chilling while Chris is out with a friend and the kids are in bed. It was a busy and productive day of baking, laundry, grocery shopping, cooking, painting Brit's nails, and getting ready for a dinner with friends tonight. The kids and I had a blast (Chris had to work late, boo!). Considering the amazing choices of food at the party, I counted everything I ate but still went over about 450 calories today. I guess I'll consider this my cheat day. Normally, I would stand over the chips and dip and go to town but I didn't. And I stayed away from the cookies and other goodies. I realize that a good chunk of my calories came from soda and other drinks...something I need to be more aware of.

Goals met today: NONE....but I'm not discouraged nor am I ready to throw in the towel.
Calories: over by 450
Workout: took the night off

Abundance is...baking with Britain.

Day 5....post Cracker Barrel

It's been a busy day around the house with the fam, clipping coupons and planning for the week, stocking up at the grocery store, Church tonight, dinner at Cracker Barrel and a little Wal-mart shopping (boo!).

I managed to eat within my calories and get in a short workout tonight. We always eat out after Church on Saturday nights so I asked Chris earlier in the day if we could decide where we would go so I could have my calories in hand. I never do well if I'm caught off guard and don't have a plan. He graciously let me pick CB! So, I had chicken tenders (for protein), two sides of green beans (veggies), 1 biscuit w/grape jelly (normally I would have 2) and Dr. Pepper (lately I've been having one a day...a habit I'd like to break sometime soon but for now baby steps!). In the past, I would ALWAYS get mac & cheese and cole slaw with my veggie plate but after looking at those calories, I won't be having those anytime soon! I actually got a side of mac & cheese for the kids but didn't have one bite. Yay!!

I'm off to finish cleaning-up the house and help Chris with the laundry.

Goals met today:
Calories: 1500
Workout: 5 min warm-up and 10 minute intense cario workout

Abundance is....getting a sweet and unexpected compliment from my hubby

Day 4....post Christmas party part deux

My day started out pretty stressed and emotional. The van wouldn't start and my heart is heavy with other things going on all around us. I first wanted to turn to food. The stress triggered my need to have control. And believe me, there's plenty in the office for me to fill-up on. BUT, I chose to pray and suck on my bottle of water instead of wallowing in food. Thank you, Lord that I chose YOU over food this time!!

It's 10:56PM and if you can believe it (I'm still in disbelief!), I just finished a 20 minute strength training workout post Christmas party! I seriously came down to the bonus room to do a quick 10 minute cardio set just to get in my workout for the day but I WANTED to do more!! I'm so happy to report that I went to the Christmas feast well prepared so I wouldn't throw in the towel and stuff my face. I must have a plan...and it worked! I wrote down all the calories for the things I knew I'd love and want and took my cheat-sheet to the party. I added filler foods like strawberries, apple slices, carrots and celery and for dessert only had 2 red. fat vanilla wafers, 1 TBSP of chocolate chip ball and 2 small peppermint patties. Definitely a milestone for me in that normally I would've hovered over the dessert table and gorged myself. :) It also helped that one of my dearest friends (who follows my blog) was standing with me at the dessert table so I had someone to watch what I put on my plate. Accountability definitely works!

We did the sneaky santa gift exchange and believe it or not, my present was a bag of Kettle corn (one of my favs!), chocolate covered fruit and black bean salsa. Somehow, I picked the only food item and I love it (in moderation of course!). :)

So thankful for a healthy ending to the day!

Goals met today:
Calories: 1500 (possibly a little over because of all the fruit and veggies I ate at dinner)
Workout: 20 minute strength training

Abundance is....a fun-filled evening with friends!

Day 3 and out of breath

Whew....I'm panting as I type! Dustin (the video trainer) gave a GREAT cardio workout that was really intense. It involves interval training so it's fast pace and according to recent studies, said to be more effective than 30-45 minute cardio workouts. The 10 minute workout involves high knee punching, dumbbell squats and pretend jumping rope in place. I did the workout through twice with a nice warm-up to start.

It's been a great day of eating and self-control. I bought myself a pack of the mini-peppermint patties to have on hand for treats so I can eat those (1 or 2 max/day) when I'm tempted to pig out on chocolate or other desserts. They're low in calories and totally satisfy my sweet tooth.

Little man's Christmas program was yesterday and Brit's was tonight and they both did SO well!! We are so proud of them!!! My heart is full.

Goals met today:
Calories: 1575 - I went over 75 calories because I couldn't just stop at ONE Mrs. Shubert's rolls at dinner...DANG!
Workout: 20 mins (warm-up & cardio)

Abundance is....the smell of banana bread baking (I'm making some for Brit's teacher now and is smells divine!)

Day 2

Day two and I managed to stay out of the chocolates again at work AND at the Christmas party tonight! Woohoo! I actually didn't have ANY sweets at the party. I ate some crackers, carrots, celery, a little Ranch dressing, pineapple chunks, and a few strawberry slices in moderation. Moderation is HUGE for me because I never eat in moderation.

Thanks for all the sweet comments. Positive words and encouragement sure do fuel my heart! I'm glad to know that some of us are on this journey together.


Goals met today:
Calories: Before dinner, I had 475 calories left. I'm not sure how to calculate the veggies, fruit and crackers I ate at the party but I'm confident I stayed within my 1500 calories or close to it. So proud I didn't PIG OUT tonight!
Workout: No workout...Chris got home late and I decided to do my coupon clipping while we watched a little TV together on the couch. I plan on working out the next 4 days to hit my 5 a week goal.

Abundance is.....the glorious smell of an Evergreen candle burning.

Confessions of a chocoholic!

It's the eve of my first Christmas party of the year (one of two this week). Honestly, it's hard to know where to start after taking such a long sabbatical from the blogging world! These past 4+ months have been a blur. I realized this week that I really need my friends....I benefited so much earlier this year when I blogged about my journey to health and taking care of myself. Since then, I've blimped up again :) and have been on an emotional, spiritual and physical roller coaster with food, workouts and my body. Thus, alas I'm back to start my blog journal up again. Somewhere along the way, I got it in my head that I'm not worth it. I'm an inconsistent failure and don't deserve to feel happy or look my best. Why do I choose to listen to the lies?? URGH!

My sweet sister came for a visit back in November and we started working out together and doing the Fit Moms for Life DVD with Dustin Maher. While I've not been consist at it since late November, it's the best workout and in addition, we were journaling our calorie intake which was super eyeopening and helpful in taking care of myself. Check him out! www.dustinmaherfitness.com

I've got a new goal now ladies (and Chris & Dad)!! We're planning a trip to Disney World in late March for Britain's 5th birthday so it's perfect motivation to get in better health and shape by then. I'm SO awful about setting lofty goals and never sticking with my plan long term.

This is scary and vulnerable but I'm going to put my goal out there. I choose to lose 20 lbs by March 25th...a few days before we leave for Disney.

Reasons for choosing to FINALLY defeat this war between self and food:

1) To honor God
2) To feel confident and comfortable in my own skin
3) To look & feel my best for myself and Chris
4) Sick of being out of breath
5) Tired of food taking up my thoughts and controlling my mind
6) To have a healthy relationship with food
7) To set a consistent example for my kids and others (I'm such a hypocrite!)
8) Sick & tired of hiding when I eat certain foods and eating off the kids plates.
9) Ready to slide into my "skinny" pants again!
10)My tummy bulge and wide hips have GOT to go!

As all of you have heard me say before, food is such a strong hold in my life. I've struggled with it my WHOLE life! I heard a name on "Bride Wars" that describes who I want to be ..... an "ex-heffer"!! This makes me laugh so hard!!! :) Even now as I type, there's a bag of Christmas chocolates GLARING at me and yelling loudly, "EAT ME!!!!" I denounce you D*** chocolates!!! And wouldn't you know, another gift basket came to the office from The Cocoa Tree!!! I also heard this from a sweet friend last week, "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels!". This is keeping me out of those stinkin chocolates right now! Thank you CV!

So my commitment is to blog every night until March 25th. **Exception-I won't have access to a computer at my parents from the 26th-31st so I'll be silent for a few days. BUT, I'll still journal my days while I'm away so I don't fall flat on my face....as I normally do when I'm on vacation. :)

Weekly/daily goals: to eat 1500 calories or less daily AND workout at least 5 times a week.

Goals met today:
Calories: My calories were 1355 before I had one orange ball (thanks Mimi) and a small slice of walnut fruit cake (I don't know how to calculate these)
Workout: 30 mins (5 min warm-up and 25 min strength training) - My arms & legs are shaking!

Abundance is.....white twinkle lights and a warm blanket.

We are SO spoiled!

Life outside of the US was quite an experience! Nothing too traumatic or crazy BUT different and very interesting to say the least.

You know you're in Russia when....
*You have to pay for toilet paper in some public places AND you never flush it! No, no....soiled TP goes in the trash!
*Trash cans are hard to find. The majority of trash goes on the ground.
*Cows stop traffic....you're on their time people!
*Grilled lamb is prepared on the side of the road.
*BO is the fragrance of choice.
*Very few people smile.
*Smoking in the airport IS allowed....cough, cough!
*When buying bottled water, you must ask for NO GAS or you end up with seltzer like water. YUCK!
*Encouraged NOT to wear your seat belt by a local.
*Tailgating is an understatement and their are no rules on passing. There were countless times I thought we were going to die from a head-on collision!
*Bread (pronounced "kleb"), cucumbers & tomatoes, Chai and coffee are staples at every meal.
*Speedos are the bathing suit preference of men.
*The area zoo only had 8 animals!
*Russian anecdotes (our version of jokes) don't make any sense!
*Saw chicken legs get cut-up with an ax in the camp kitchen.

Needless to say, I was SO THANKFUL to be back in the US! Spoiled with my starbucks, comfort foods, english speaking people....ahhhh, welcome home!!

Seriously, I joke about the differences I experienced but I NEVER would have dreamed God would change my heart for Russia and the precious people He allowed me to share life with. I want to go back next year, I want to learn the Russian language. In fact, I "promised" a few of the ladies that if the Lord allows me to come back, I will know how to speak to them next year. In response, some of them shared they would learn English!

I've never felt so free during worship. The worship time is very interactive with dancing and singing and I love that it's multi-generational. Families worshiping together with infants on up to the elderly. It was a true picture of what I believe Heaven will be like one day. Despite the language barrier and not always having a translator close by, the Lord allowed me to bond with some of the women. Most of it was through smiles and lots of gestures and "sign language." I felt like the crazy American waving my arms around and gesturing to get my point across but some how, we bonded.

I really connected with one of the older ladies...I consider her my Russian grandmother. EVERY time I saw her, she would smile and say, "Brrrrrrrrrrrooooooookkkkkke!" with such enthusiasm (they roll their "r's" so it's really fun to hear her say my name!). The morning we left camp, we were loading up the vans at 6:30AM and a few of the people came out to see us off. My "grandmother" (one of the oldest ladies there) came running up to me with tears in her eyes, saying my name and handed me a flowered box. The translator explained she wanted me to have her perfume..she was sorry it wasn't new but that she wanted me to have it. I had smelled her all week and when I open the box now, she's with me again and again! Her sacrificial and loving gift is so biblical. By the way she dressed and from what I had heard, she doesn't have much but yet she wanted ME to have her costly perfume! Before I ran off to the van (I was so stinkin sad!), she gave me the tightest squeeze I've ever received and said that she hopes she lives long enough to see me again next year. That statement sent me over the edge and I balled my eyes out! God allowed me to find my tears again in Russia.

There's more to share but I'll end this blog entry for now.

Abundance is...hearing Britain say "I'm the best cook" and "You are amazing!"in the same day! :)

Back in the U.S.A and in the blogging world again!

Hi supportive friends! Ok, so I've been back in the USA (praise the Lord!) since late on the 2nd but to be honest, I've had a hard time gearing up to blog again. I've actually thought about quitting altogether as I'm overwhelmed with ALL that God revealed to me in Russia AND I'm so unbalanced in my eating and workouts again.
I'm continuing to process what's going on in my heart and trying to remember that what was revealed to me in Russia was true and real. The hardest part is not forgetting to live it out, especially now that I'm back at home in my comfortable routine.
The distractions in America are SO loud and tempting!
I'm so grateful the Lord allowed me to come back home, I wasn't sure if I'd make it back alive a few times! The drivers over there are crazy and some of the plane rides were a little scary. But, alas, I'm one blessed lady.

Abundance is...the JOY and THRILL of seeing Thunder go pee pee on the potty for the first time! :)

DAY 169 & 170

It was going on midnight last night when I started slowing down and then Comcast decided to disable phones & internet from 12AM-7AM this morning! I missed my post last night and wanted to take this time to go ahead and post for today, as well. Tonight I plan on being with my family as much as possible.

We had our team packing party at the church last night and it seems my suitcase (which I borrowed from the church) malfunctioned so someone graciously let me borrow another one. Chris, being the "pack daddy" layered and packed all 45 lbs of my "ish" so beautifully! I'm afraid to take it out...I know it'll never look the same once I start rummaging around in there.

Brit's 2nd swim lesson went really well yesterday! The teacher "forced" her underwater to swim and kick on her own and Brit wasn't a big fan. She cried three different times but sometimes that's the only way we'll learn. If we push off into unknown waters and learn to float on our own. I think I can relate to Brit. It's scary and no fun when you go deep. I feel the same way about leaving for Russia. It's unknown, scary and risky and I'll be in deep waters...probably in over my head at times but just as Brit has her teacher and the steps close for safety, I KNOW God has wrapped Himself around me as I push off into unknown waters. Clinging to Him like Brit would cling to her Elmo float!

Another post coming your way on August 3rd after I return.....

Abundance is...leaving little notes for my family to read while I'm away!

DAY 167 & 168

Man, what a WONDERFUL evening with dear friends! The most amazing shish-ca-bobs (haven't a clue how you spell it!). Followed by ice cream and brownies and YES, I had some!! It was truly a blessing to have a night away from packing to just hang with an amazing family of five. Their 3 kids (ages 21, 19 & 15) loved on our kids and entertained them while I chatted with the adults. It was delightful! I just hate Chris didn't make it....he's still not home and it's 10:30PM. Long, rainy day at work for him.

I'm packing up my craft trunk and suitcase tonight for our packing party at the church tomorrow night. The countdown is ON!

After Friday, I won't get to blog until the 3rd! We only get a total of 10 minutes on the SAT phone while we're in Russia to call home and I won't be taking my cell so it's going to be hard enough not speaking with Chris and the kids for 9 days! Please pray for my heart to be at peace, I know I will miss them like crazy and I don't want that to take away from being in the moments with the people we're serving.

Abundance is...listening to Britain rattle off what she wants to be when she grows-up: teacher, doctor, dentist, guard ("who goes there? who goes there?"), and a fire truck girl!!!

DAY 166

Friends-I think I've already checked out! Meaning, I don't have any motivation to work out this week. My days and nights are busy getting ready for my trip and I'd rather just hang with Chris.

Brit had her first swim lesson today and did great! Her instructor said her coordination is pretty good. She practiced some in the bath tub tonight and got more comfortable getting her ears in the water. Excited about tomorrow's lesson.

I was able to crank out a lot of crafts for Russia today so I feel a great sense of accomplishment today. One step at a time!!

Off to go hang with Chris for a bit before bed.

Abundance is...enjoying craft time with Brit...working side by side! :)

DAY 165

Another GORGEOUS day/evening here in Middle TN! Ahhhh, I don't want it to EVER end! Zero humidity is truly AMAZING!

It's been a fun/busy day here at the casa. Brit helped me clean the whole top floor of the house, she's such a great helper! Then we made blueberry muffins, painted, did some laundry, rested on the couch, visited with Mimi & Papa and did some more crafts. Chris actually got home around 5PM which is unheard of these days so we grilled out and ate alfresco on the deck! After dinner, we loaded up and took a stroll through downtown Franklin (Britain pulled little man in the wagon the entire time!) and made a pit stop at Starbucks. Which was just what I needed to combat my migraine.

Abundance is...sweet moments with my little ones!

DAY 163 & 164

Chris & I just came in from enjoying this AMAZING evening on the front porch! I want to sleep under the stars tonight! Would've been an excellent weekend for camping!

We've spent time with good friends the last two evenings which has been such a blessing. It's been a busy weekend getting stuff ready for Russia, grocery shopping, cleaning, etc.

I did stop long enough to try a delicious new smoothie recipe. They are so healthy and yummy! Don't cringe when I say that the recipe calls for a handful of spinach! You can't taste it and it adds so many good nutrients along with strawberries, blueberries and a banana. I'll send the recipe to anyone who's interested.

No workouts the past few days and I had Mexican tonight (chips & queso included) so that about tells you how I've been eating!

Abundance is....a crisp, cool night on the porch with my sweet hubs.

DAY 162

To "all" my readers who care...I'm struggling tonight friends. Struggling and have a myriad of thoughts rolling through my mind. I'm bouncing from thankfulness to anger to utter frustration to sadness to feeling like one blessed Mama. Let's just say fostering and working with the system is really, really difficult. I haven't had tears about this in a long time and the anger is in my throat.
Ok, I need to switch topics...quick!
I've felt really down and had NO desire to workout tonight. I spent about 10 minutes venting to Chris!
I do have a genuine abundance quote...
Abundance is....watching Brit and little man do Pilates together. Little man on the floor, legs up, resistance bands around his waste and Brit moving and grooving to Maury! They really did cheer me up just watching them! :)

DAY 160 & 161

So I skipped out on my blog last night...mainly because it was super late when I went to bed AND because I didn't get my workout in yesterday. I'm just now finishing up some craft projects I'm working on for Russia so it's another late night and we have to be at the hospital at 6AM so little man can get tubes.
I did manage to pep talk my way to the treadmill tonight for 30 minutes. I had NO desire to workout but alas I pushed through.
Eating the past two days has been pretty good. Still working on adding more fruits and veggies everyday. Brit tried celery, almonds and strawberries (and liked them all!) the past few days. AND she ASKED for cucumbers at dinner last night and tonight. The best part is she ate them without dip! I offered it to her but she refused. So, so thankful she's developing a taste for yummy, healthy veggies & fruits early on.
Brit is spending the night at Mimi & Papa's since we have such an early appointment tomorrow so the house has been super quiet tonight. It felt weird, yet refreshing to have little man in bed by 8:30 and have the rest of the evening to get things done. Laundry, workout, crafts, etc.
Abundance is....observing Brit's excitement and awe as she gazed upon God's beautiful rainbow this afternoon.

DAY 159

I'm excited to share that I DID in fact get up right when my alarm clock woke me up at 5:45AM! And I was out the door walking our hilly street (6 laps to be exact) for a little over 30 minutes. It was a "cool" morning, the rising sun was beautiful! After my walk, I came in and spent some time in the Word and in prayer until I heard little man's chatter. It was such a sweet time!

I don't normally post my meals by I ate really well today, mixing carbs and proteins with every meal and wanted to share.
Breakfast:
Protein bar & banana plus an 8oz Mcafe Mocha from McDonald's (free)
Snack:
Apple slices & peanut butter
Lunch:
Veg chili (I tried mixing a small can of tomato sauce, kidney beans, diced tomatoes and rotel and it turned out delicious), low fat cottage cheese, blueberries & carrots with sundried tomato hummus (I'm not a huge fan of cottage cheese but mixed in with the chili it was really good...a lot like sour cream in chili)
Snack:
Trailmix (peanuts, almonds, raisins & a few M&Ms from Trader Joe's)
Dinner:
Homemade low fat chicken salad (grapes, almonds, carrots, dill, light mayo, lemon juice) with lettuce on a whole wheat english muffin, asian broccoli slaw, grapes & Ovaltine (it contains a lot of nutrients and is really tasty mixed in fat free milk)

All of my helpings were much smaller than normal. Usually I go back for seconds but was really satisfied after these filling foods).

It's been a really great day. The kids were good sports making a few deliveries to some friends and then we made some crafts together. Chris rolled in at 6:45PM! I was floored....it's been so nice having him home all night. The kids love hanging on their Daddy when he's around.

I just finished Bible Study with a dear friend and I'm wrapping up things so I can get in bed soon.

Abundance is...listening to Brit's sweet song about God and her blessing that lasted about 2 minutes!

DAY 158

The weekend is ending, *sigh* and I'm actually gonna get in bed EARLY tonight. Anytime before 11PM is early for me. My goal is to get up at 5:45A to get my workout in early and have some time in the Word. I didn't get my walk in tonight so I'm hopeful for tomorrow! I did manage to clean-up the kitchen, dry mop the hardwoods (we were being attacked by giant dust bunnies!) and dust. Accomplishment, YES! :)
Today has been packed with grocery shopping and errands this morning, lunch and hang time with one of my closest friends this afternoon and then time with Daddy tonight. He's still fighting a head cold and just crashes at night. His day was long and HOT so I know that didn't help any.
I stocked up on lots of fruits, veggies and healthy snacks at Trader Joe's so I'm ready for the week! I've got two weeks 'til Russia and need to get my butt in gear. Lots of prepping to do....physically, mentally and spiritually!
Abundance is...watching my two little ones hug and love on each other.

DAY 157

I don't think I've seen 5:45AM in a long time until this morning! It was glorious and overcast...perfect for our neighborhood yard sale. I was able to get rid of some stuff and make a little moo-la for Russia!
Brit helped me shop some more for my trip this afternoon. Today she decided to take some of her own money to Michael's and "blow it" on crafts. We had a mini-breakdown in the process but for the most part she's a big helper.
The message at church tonight was based on Psalm 26 about standing on level ground. Our teaching pastor asked the question, "What does God think of me?" My natural, sinful thoughts always look to the world first to see what others think of me. I must embrace what's true about me...embrace reality. That's what God sees. He sees the choices I've made (good and bad) that are my reality. David's heart (in this Psalm) was not divided. He was standing on level ground.
The food choices I've made today have not been the best. This is SUCH a struggle for me! The reality is I will ALWAYS be faced with food temptations until the day I die. I did, however, manage to get myself on the treadmill tonight for 35 minutes followed by 100 beautiful crunches!
Please keep Chris in your prayers. He's got a bad head cold that has wiped him out this weekend and he has to be at work early tomorrow. He's got such a strenuous job with long hours so I'm praying for God to renew his strength and heal his body.
Abundance is....hearing Britain talk about Heaven. Mommy, "will my stuffed animals be there? Will I have my clothes?" :)

DAY 156

Whew! I'm whooped....and I've still got a little more yard sale prep to do before calling it a day. Then up with the chickens!
Today has been oh so fun! My sweet friend Crystal planned a Fancy Nancy party for our little ladies so we got all dressed up (including the Mamas), strolled around downtown Franklin, ate a delicious lunch at a fun little spot, took lots of pictures and ended with Ben & Jerry's ice cream (I didn't buy one for myself but yes, I did help Brit with her Mint Chocolate Chip delight!). I posted pics on my Facebook page.
No workout out but I've been going non-stop since I got off work at 12:30PM this afternoon. We ate dinner at McAlister's and I had their healthy Mediterrean pizza again...it's vegetarian and very filling (lots of veggies). At one point, little man dropped some food on the floor and started yelling, "Scout, Scout!". We sweetly told him Scout was at home sleeping and not there to lick up his din din!
Abundance is...date day with my sweet little lady!

DAY 155

Alas, another day without a workout. Thankfully, I ate really healthy today and had great success getting the kids to eat more fruits and veggies than normal. I packed them in at dinner. Brit and I had fun making some low fat apple muffins (another way to "sneak" in fruit). She did really well grating the apples and mixing the ingredients. They turned out ok although a little bland. The kids seemed to like them.
Brit went "down" around 9PM but was still chatting at 9:45PM so Chris asked me to keep her up until he rolled in (another late night). So, it's 10:15 and when am I supposed to get a workout in? I think I need to consider rising in the early morn...that seems the most realistic at this point. It's just so hard getting up before 6AM! Pre-kids, I used to BE at the YMCA BY 5AM!! Crazy!
Our neighborhood is having a yard sale Saturday (that I've helped to coordinate) so I'll be up a little longer continuing to price items and get things ready.
Abundance is...the joys of baking with my little lady!

DAY 154

I'm weary and struggling with another one of my headaches. Thankfully it's not a migraine, I'm just super tired. Today was the first day in a long time that I kept a journal of everything I ate. I've really been convicted lately about eating healthier for health reasons, not even just losing/maintaining weight. Especially incorporating more fruits and veggies into our family diet.
Tonight was our last Russia team meeting before we head out at the end of the month. I can't believe how close we're getting! I've got so much to do to prepare.
Sadly, no workout today. Hoping to hit the treadmill tomorrow night.
Abundance is....coming home tonight and being greeted at the top of the stairs by all three of my VIPS! :)

DAY 152 & 153

I'm back! I had nothing of interest to post yesterday and again, I didn't get my workout in so I skipped blogging last night.
BUT, I just got off the treadmill after an intense 30 minute walk using different inclines. I have to say those 30 minutes flew by! I haven't sweated this much in a long time! I need a good kick in the butt these days. My motivation and discipline is stalling out. My friend, Ally has lost over 20 lbs in the last 4 months and is a GREAT inspiration! I feel so blessed to have some great cheerleaders in my life spurring me on.
We got the official letter today saying we've been approved as Foster Parents! Praise the Lord!
Abundance is...the joy of hearing little man say new words! Precious...

DAY 151

I'm sad to say I'm not in the best mood and don't feel like posting. I haven't eaten the best today and I didn't workout. Kinda in a blah mood because of it. I really need a jump start tomorrow!!
The day was fun with the kids...lots of grocery shopping and then craft shopping for my Russia trip. The kids did amazingly well despite the fact I lugged them around from store to store. :) Watching a little "Juno" with Chris now.
Abundance is...coloring with Britain!

Day 149 & 150

Our wonderfully AMAZING mini-vacay to Chattanooga is over. Thankfully, it felt like we were gone for a few days! I feel so refreshed...it was so good for my soul! The kids did incredible and we had a blast! I didn't get my workout in yesterday or today but we walked all evening last night and some of today. We packed a lot in! The downtown Marriott where we stayed was fabulous; we swam in the outdoor pool yesterday and the indoor pool this morning. We ate a LATE dinner at Mellow Mushroom last night and then walked on the walking bridge over the river and caught the fireworks (the kids rode in our wagon!). It was 11PM before we got to bed so it was quite amazing that none of us woke up until 10AM this morning! We hung out at Coolidge Park today and let the kids ride the Merry Go Round and play in the water fountains. We ate at the Good Dog (a yummy hot dog joint) for lunch and I got a delicious salad. Then we walked around the Chattanooga Choo Choo shops and trains before we headed back home. I did get ice cream with the family and mint chocolate chip never tasted so good!
Abundance is...the blessing of a family getaway.

DAY 147 & 148

I'm back! Sorry I was a slacker last night. I didn't have much to post (no workout last night) and honestly just didn't have it in me. Today has been much better!

I got in a 35 minute walk on the treadmill and feel much better for it. I turned off the voice that was telling me to eat tonight at 11PM! Victory moment! We had dinner at McAlister's and I had an amazing Mediterrean pizza with feta, black olives, peppers and mozzarella. It was on a whole wheat flour tortilla so it was extra lite and crunchy. We had a sweet time with the kids tonight at the park. Chris surprised me with the news that we're taking off tomorrow morning to Chattanooga for an overnight. He was able to Priceline the Marriott in the downtown area for a great deal. I LOVE mini-getaways and I'm pumped to "get out of dodge" for 24 hours!

Abundance is...a good laugh! Britain tonight, "Daddy, we got the Barbie Diarrhea movie at the library today! Chris and I laughing and perplexed! I said, "Oh, you mean the Barbie Diaries right?" Oh, that's it! HILARIOUS!

I'll post again on Saturday night. Happy 4th everyone!

DAY 146

The day is winding down and I'm chilling on the couch after a fun little 20 minute workout....again with 5 lb weights, lunges, arm & leg lifts and 150 crunches. Sadly, Chris still hasn't made it home and it's almost 10PM so I'm hoping to get my blog updated and everything in order before he walks in so I can veg with him for a bit before bed.

Eating wise, I feel really good about my food choices today. I even had an opportunity to get a Starbucks drink and didn't....huge victory! Not a major deal but I'm trying to stick to one a week AND I don't need the extra calories.

The kids and I enjoyed family dinner with Mimi and Papa and had fun swinging and hanging on the porch this evening...there was a really nice breeze. Bath time was fun as I listened to Brit make up stories with her Barbies and watched little man dump buckets of water on his head.

I'm in a spirit to share a resource that has really helped me in my "eating disorder" journey. No, I don't have a normal ED but I do have an unhealthy obsession with food and so I fall into that category. It's not talked about much because our society and culture revolves around food; mostly junk food. Anyway, my friend Constance Rhodes started FindingBalance here in Franklin and I wanted to share her website and blog link so you can check-out this incredible ministry to women who struggle with food.

www.findingbalance.com

http://blog.findingbalance.com/

Also, I got this email excerpt from Chantel Hobbs this morning and wanted to share it.

Hi there "Never Say Dieters"!

I want to talk to you this morning about attitude.
It seems to me when I look back on my own struggles, I always heard - change your attitude, attitude is everything!
While changing it or recognizing the importance of having a postive one can be important- these sayings are overrated!
Here's why:
Even with the greatest attitude in the world- without actually putting action behind it, you'll get nothing for it and go nowhere.

Here's your challenge for the week:

Find a way to DO something new each day that is going to help you get further along with your weight loss and desire to build discipline.

Try a new exercise
Add 15 minutes to your walk
Give up the second cup of coffee
Create a New Healthy Salad
Write yourself a note thanking "YOU" for taking charge of your life

You get the idea- there is no wrong THING to DO as long as it is something new and something measurable-
The goal is to end each day feeling great that you took on a challenge and backed your willing attitude with REAL action!

Much Love-
Staying the Course with YOU!
Chantel

Abundance is...a comfy couch and a quiet home...even if only for a few minutes.

DAY 145

Happy Monday! 'Twas a great start to my week. I started my morning in the Word, I just love getting alone in my closet and spending time with the Lord. Work went well and then little man had a follow-up appt at the doctor's to check is iron levels. Praise the Lord his levels are up and he no longer has to be on iron drops! That stuff is so gross and stinky! Plus, there was a court date today and we found out that little man will remain in state custody, which in turn means he will remain with us (hopefully) until the adoption is final. We serve a MIGHTY God!

I took the kids on a little shopping spree to stock-up on stuff for Russia and then we went to Chick-fil-a for dinner. When we pulled up, Chris surprised us! That's two nights in a row he's gotten off work early or on time. Other than one fry and a handful of saltines, I ate pretty healthy. And I didn't OD on food at work OR eat after 8PM tonight. Which lately has become a habit.

I just spent 25 minutes doing lunges, weights, arm curls, leg lifts and 100 crunches. I already feel it in my legs. Yay!

Abundance is...an unexpected dinner with Chris & the kids!

DAY 144

It's 10:45PM and I just jumped off the treadmill! I normally don't like working out after 9:30PM but I MADE myself get on and pushed through for 45 minutes. I feel so much better for it, too!

Today has been a fun Sunday. The kids and I went to the pool with Mimi and Papa and stayed for a few hours. We enjoyed nap time afterward and then one of my team mates from Russia came to the house so we could prep. Chris had a fun work function this evening so the kids and I enjoyed bath time together!

I ate fairly healthy today and hope to incorporate more fruits, veggies and whole grains this week. I'm committing now NOT to get on the scale in the morning. It hasn't been doing me much good anyway except making me discouraged so I'm not going to focus on a number this week!

Abundance is...walking into Brit's room and watching the kids dancing together to a crazy song on the radio!

DAY 142 & 143

I promise I didn't fall off the wagon, our internet was down yesterday and some of today but I'm back and ready to post about the last 2 days!

Yesterday was a busy day and I battled another migraine the majority of the day. Thus, one cappucino, one Dr. Pepper and one Caramel lite Frap later in addition to a dose of Excedrin migraine. I had another mild headache today so I did drink another Dr. Pepper. My commitment has been broken but it won't become a habit. I just know that I need caffeine with I get bad headaches and I can't always go get a pricey Starbucks drink so I opted for the cheaper, quicker route of a soda.

I found a great website by Chantell Hobbs that has some good tips and tools to help you on your lifestyle health changes. Check her out! www.chantellhobbs.com.

We had dinner last night with my former boss at EMI and his sweet family and had THE best time! We love spending time with them. They grilled out delicious steaks and we ate a pretty healthy meal of wild rice, green beans, salad and rolls. We didn't want to leave! The kids had a blast, too!

When we got home, we were greeted by a big mess in the attic. The water drain on our air conditioner overflowed so we spent a good amount of time up in the attic with the wet vac cleaning up the mess. Chris got that fixed this morning (praise the Lord he's so skilled) and was able to get our phones & internet back up today, as well. We enjoyed a great time at the pool as a family and then went to church and Cracker Barrel this evening.

Instead of the treadmill tonight, I decided to try some new exercises in my Woman's Day magazine. They included lunges, leg lifts, weights and I did 100 crunches with a weight in hand. It was a nice change from the treadmill. I really want to build muscle in my arms and get rid of the flabby parts.

Abundance is...the glorious pink sunset tonight.

DAY 141

I feel like I'm reliving Day 140!! Ha! Late night again, just finished a sweet Bible Study with my friend (we met for over 2 hours!). Little man's cousin came for a playdate this afternoon so we had a great time together with her. It's been a busy day! I'm blown away by God's provisions.
Sad that it's been 2 days and no treadmill time. Eating went ok but not great.
Abundance is...unexpected blessings.

DAY 140

It's been a long day and I'm pooped so I'll make this short and sweet. Some dear friends watched the kids tonight so I could go to my Russia team meeting and I didn't get home until 9:50! We got Brit down and then Chris and I talked and caught-up. Needless to say, I didn't get any treadmill time today. Still working on increasing my fruit and veggie intake and did pretty good with it today. BUT, I came home and started eating...George is in town again! I don't want to use that as an excuse, though so I'm hoping for a better tomorrow.
Abundance is...sweet afternoon moments with the kids.

DAY 139

Just hopped off the treadmill after 45 minutes (and 400 calories burned)! After I post, Chris and I are heading out to the deck to enjoy this gorgeous, "cool" evening for a bit before bed.
Not a ton to report today but I did eat lots of fruits and veggies. Little man had a hard night last night so we're praying for some much needed rest tonight.
Abundance is...the blessing of family and friends!

DAY 138

Today was weigh-in day and according to our scale, I was down 1.5 lbs!! I'm tempted to chunk the scale and not weigh-in altogether and just go by the way my clothes feel since it's less obsessive. The last few days, I've started incorporating some of the things the authors of "Skinny Bitch" suggest....like eating fruit first thing in the morning - 30 minutes before anything else; eating more fruits and veggies; cutting back on meats and dairy. I consumed a lot of great foods that aren't typically on my list or in our house (I really stocked up this week at Trader Joe's!) - grapefruit, sweet potatoes, edamame (thank you, Lord for edamame!), beans & salsa, and peaches. I didn't have any meat today and the only dairy food I had was some light sour cream with my beans and salsa. I must say I feel so satisfied after a day chocked full of healthy foods! Still trying to bump up my water intake, to purify my body.
Excited to say I turned down a Sonic drink (my boss was paying and I politely said NO!) and I resisted the granola bars and crackers in the office. I even got in a 30 minute walk on the treadmill!
Abundance is...a surprise visit from Brit and Mimi at work. Made my day!

DAY 137

I'm SO thankful for my sweet hubs, Dad & Dad-in-law! We had a fun day celebrating! Brit and I made Chris breakfast (muffins & an omelet with watermelon) and enjoyed watching Chris read his cards and open his gifts. We got him a few gift cards to his favorite spots and I surprised him with portraits of the kids (it's kind of a Father's Day tradition I started last year). The pics turned out amazing! Then, Chris humored us and we had some fun family time at the pool! Then he went for a scooter ride and when he came back, Brit and I had transformed the bonus room downstairs into a spa! We had candles lit, soft music playing, hot towels, a peppermint on his pillow, a drink and lots of lotions! We escorted him in and had him soak his feetsies in a foot massaging tub while we massaged his hands and arms. After his foot soak, we laid him back on comfy pillows and massaged his feet until he fell asleep. We left him down there for a long nap! This evening, we had a great dinner with Mimi & Papa at McAlister's (I got the best vegetarian greek feta "pizza"!). It was a glorious day!

Food wise, I enjoyed lots of fruits and veggies (edamame, watermelon, strawberries, apple, green peppers, black olives, red peppers) BUT I killed the cinnamon streusel muffins we made for breakfast. :[ We ordered a slice of key lime pie and a slice of banana pudding pie for Papa & Chris at dinner and I'm happy to say I only had ONE bite of each! I wanted the whole key lime but I stopped myself at one bite. Still doesn't make up for my crazy muffin obsession today. And I had every intention of getting in at least a 15 minute walk on the treadmill tonight BUT the dishes and laundry are screaming my name and I want to get in bed at a decent time.
Abundance is...watching the love of my life playing with the kids.

DAY 136

Happy Mother's Day! Not quite, BUT I did get to use my Mother's Day gift card to Serendipity today. It was FABULOUS to say the least! I got a French manicure, my first ever, and I'm so impressed. I don't do my nails so the fact that they look so natural and beautiful is amazing. Then, I had my eyebrows waxed. It was definitely an experience! I was escorted into a dimly lit room with soft music playing and got to lay back in the softest massage chair. The waxing hurt (of course!) but then the lady massaged my eyebrows and covered the area with lotion. It was dreamy! I'll NEVER go back to the other salon, this place is the best! If you live in or near Franklin, you've GOT to go sometime! The rest of the day Brit and I shopped at Trader Joe's, Target and Kroger. We stocked up on lots of fruits and veggies. On another note, I'm curious if any of you have ever used a product called Juice Plus?? I was recently approached by a friend encouraging me to try their products. I definitely want to look into it. Let me know if you've ever used it.

We went to church this evening with the family and then Moe's for dinner. I ate a fairly healthy vegetarian quesadilla and substituted the chips for some of little man's goldfish! I drank lots of water today...trying to stay hydrated! I just jumped off the treadmill after a 35 minute walk and feel really good. Chris and I are about to catch a movie in our living room!
Abundance is...my luxurious "spa" day.

DAY 135

What a fun dia! I only work half days on Fridays so after work, I headed down to Spring Hill to help a friend do some organizing in her home. I had a blast and so enjoyed time with her! I heart helping people create order in their homes and could do this the rest of my life. Then, I came home and picked up Chris and the kids and took a road trip down to M'boro to the Discovery Center. It was free night so we got to experience some really cool stuff...the kids had the best time! We decided to eat at Red Robin for dinner since we don't have one here in Franklin and it's one of our favs. Dinner was chaotic with the kids to say the least and we were reminded that that's the reason we hardly ever eat at sit down restaurants. You spend a lot AND don't get to enjoy it as long with fussy kids. Regardless, we had a sweet evening together.
The bad news is, I caved and had fries with my dinner. The good news is, I CHOSE to get on the treadmill even though my tummy hurt from overeating and eating crap. I walked for 50 minutes...the pace was slower than normal but I'm proud of myself for getting on!
Abundance is....the provision to take road trips and eat special meals out.

DAY 134

I have a tendency to run and hide when I "fail" so I'll be honest in that I didn't want to post tonight. I've noticed spiritually I've been "hiding" too this past week. Shame and guilt keep me down. I've eaten terrible this week and didn't get my workout again today (just finished bible study with a friend). Trusting that I will make better choices tomorrow.
Abundance is...sweet moments on the phone with my parents.

DAY 133

Not too much to report today. We had our last home study meeting today, woohoo! Then it was hang time with the kids, a trip to Target and story time with Daddy. We didn't get Brit down until after 9:30AM and then we cleaned up and folded laundry. So I didn't get a workout in today and eating still needs to get back on track.
I'm thinking about reading "Skinny Bitch" again (we actually have it on audio book). The authors make a lot of good points, some of which I'll never be able to fully comply with but I remember implementing some of the things they encouraged and for about 2 weeks my body felt so much better. I will never be a vegetarian but I'd like to get in the habit of incorporating some of their advice. We'll see!
Abundance is...listening to Britain spell every word she sees! She's doing amazing!

DAY 132

Good news, bad news! Just jumped off the treadmill after a 45 minute walk! However, the 400+ calories I burned MAY have helped a little but I totally bombed this afternoon and let the candy and sweets in the house take me over the edge. I seriously cannot be trusted sometimes with them in the house! That's exactly why I hardly ever buy this stuff!
Regardless of my lack of self-control, today was a nice day. Work went well and I had a fun afternoon/evening with the kids. Tuesdays are family night with Mimi and Papa so we enjoyed dinner together and then hung out. Chris made it home in time to read with Brit and tuck her in bed.
Abundance is...rejoicing with a friend when truth prevails!

DAY 131

Weigh-in disaster day! Sad to say I gained 2.5 lbs this past week! URGH! I KNOW it's really NOT about the numbers on the scale but I can't help being frustrated with myself. Guess the candy and no workouts two days in a row didn't help!
All in all, it was a great day despite my not so fun weigh-in. I had another home study meeting this afternoon right after work...the kids were pretty good about occupying themselves while I sat at the kitchen table being interviewed. Happy to say I just jumped off the treadmill after 30 minutes of walking. Yay! Chris is just now heading home for a late night of work so I'm anxious to see him.
One of my dear friends reminded me about the book "Captivating" so I dusted it off this morning and began to feast again on God's truth about me as His daughter and as a woman. Deep heart stuff...really sweet.
Abundance is...butterfly kisses and giggling with Brit at bedtime...such sweet moments tonight!

DAY 130

Oh happy day! Today was so sweet (literally, see below)! The kids and I did our Father's Day shopping (early) and then met my dear friend for lunch at "Welcome to Moe's!" Then we hit the road for Smyrna for Brit's friend's 5th birthday party. We stayed for a few hours and had a blast. I withstood the temptations of the chocolate chip cookie at Moe's, the birthday cake and ice cream but the bag of goodies that came home with us from the party took me under (not your fault Ally, I need self-discipline!). I've done stellar on my commitment to no desserts but totally caved tonight. And to top off my sweet tooth tonight and I didn't workout. Two reasons...struggling with another migraine AND Chris and I finally made the time to watch "Fireproof." Excellent movie and so worth it!
Thankful for the new day tomorrow and a new beginning.
Abundance is...quiet moments with Chris.

DAY 129

Ok folks, this will be sweet and short as I'm battling a really bad migraine. Today was such a great day! Little man no longer looks like a girl! We got his hair cut for the first time and he was an angel! It's the coolest cute and styled and spikey on top. Then we hit Merridee's for lunch (I didn't eat great) and then we "talked" Brit into checking out Sweet & Sassy. She's had two bad hair experiences in the past at other places so Chris has been trimming it the last few times. She was a big girl and decided she wanted to get her's trimmed and layered. She was a champ too. We ended up at Toysrus for a quick visit and treat and then home again for some R&R. Brit and I did a Kroger run and then we went to church and Chickfila for dinner (again, I didn't get the greatest). Great day... but no workout and a slacker on my eating plan.
Abundance is...the contentment and joy family days bring to my heart!

DAY 128

I'm going, going, almost gone so I'll make this brief. I was able to get in 50 minutes on the treadmill tonight and burned over 400 calories!! We had a long home study meeting that went great this afternoon and then took the kids to Cracker Barrel and made a pit stop at Walmart on the way home. Chris and I just got our after-the-kids-go-down date on the couch watching a movie and now we're off to bed. Sadly, I haven't been tracking my points well this week.
Abundance is...the gorgeous pink sunset tonight.

DAY 127

So sad to start a blog out with this...but I wanted a Dr. Pepper soooooooo bad today! But I DIDN'T cave...woohoo!! Little man and I both had doctor appointments this afternoon...mine not so fun (I'll spare the details!). Sweet evening with the kids and Chris was actually home before 8 tonight! Amazing! He just left on a drive out to Hermitage to pick-up the cutest (and cheap) little wooden vanity we found on Craiglist for Brit. She desperately needs a place for all her girlie bows and jewelry and accessories...she collects them like Fancy Nancy!
I'm making myself shut the computer off after this and go C-L-E-A-N! No treadmill tonight but I'll be movin and shakin as I mop and dust!
Abundance is...silly dancin with the fam before bedtime...my fav!

DAY 126

Well, I think I successfully worked off the dag-um animal crackers I ate after dinner! Just jumped off the treadmill after a good 30 minute workout. I cranked up the incline and speed the last five minutes to really get the sweat flowing.
Today was such a sweet day. The kids were especially loveys. We surprised Daddy with a late dinner (he didn't roll in from work until 8:30'ish) so we lit a candle, had music playing in the background and sat with him while he ate. We watched videos of U2, Coldplay and Keith Urban (on the laptop) while we hung with him. Then we enjoyed bedtime stories and prayers.
Abundance is...the giggles and laughter of my precious little boy. He laughs even when I'm not touching him!

DAY 125

'Twas a pleasantly productive peaceful day at work today (like the alliteration?). I will say I was on the phone with my doctor and dentist discussing some issues...seems like I'm falling apart now that I'm in my thirties! The kids and I had fun this afternoon hanging with our next door neighbors and helping them plant a few things in their new garden. Then we made dinner for Mimi and Papa and played a matching game after our "feast". Chris had to work late so we played our way through bath time and bedtime stories. After I got the kids down, I started some "chores" and decided NOT to workout. It was pushing 9:45 so I gave myself the night off and I'm not going to feel bad about it! Although I WAS eating some broccoli salad and strawberries while I folded laundry. :)
I need to close the laptop now....sweet dreams my friends!
Abundance is...sipping a cup of French Vanilla brew.

DAY 124

Just jumped off the treadmill!! Got my 30 minute workout in...I overslept this morning so I didn't get any closet time but I just had a sweet prayer walk!
I weighed this morning and again I'm the same weight I've been for the last month or so. The weight's not going down but I'm maintaining and I was able to get into a pair a shorts I haven't worn in over a year!
Are you ready to hear a new commitment I made today?? I've decided to give up sodas again (only the 100th time in my life!). Lately, I've been drinking one a day which just isn't necessary or healthy...and I don't do diet drinks so I'm drinking lots of sugar! Typically when I feel prompted to give-up something, I would go overboard that day and then quit the next day. I desperately wanted one last Dr. Pepper today but felt like I needed to be obedient today and not wait.
The kids and I had a fun afternoon together and got to play with our neighbors before dinner.
We have a huge adoption praise! Little man's Aunt & Uncle were able to briefly meet with the head lady in the tribe on the rez today about us. They have a meeting scheduled for tomorrow night to potentially give her our letter and pictures. Please continue to pray for God's favor. Yesterday marks 1 year since God called us to move forward in adopting. It was a great day!
Abundance is...watching God move mightily!

DAY 123

My day started out making Mickey Mouse shape pancakes (with sprinkles) and eating Alfresco on the deck with the kids! It was so fun! Then we hit the pool with Mimi. I'm definitely feeling the heat on my back tonight but I so need the color. I actually took a nap while little man was down and Brit was having some quiet time...it was wonderful! Later this afternoon, we did some major grocery shopping. Chris got home a decent hour so we got to spend time with the kids together, do a little more shopping and tag team baths and bedtime stories. I love our evenings together!
Excited to report that I got my buns on the treadmill tonight for 40 minutes....it's been way too stinkin' long since I've gotten a solid workout! I weigh-in tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. Eating hasn't been the greatest. New week ahead!
Abundance is...little helpers at the grocery and a full stocked pantry!

Day 122

Today has been one of the most memorable days! We had a GREAT family day together. Brit and I painted each other's nails and we found a great table set for our deck. Brit's excited about eating Alfresco outside tomorrow! This afternoon before church, Chris informed me that we were having a date night. So we took the kids to church, served in the Learning Center and then left for Nashville. Sweet Mimi and Papa took over with the kids and watched them until we walked in the door about 20 minutes ago. Chris drove us to downtown Nashville and when we got out at Sat Co, he informed me we were meeting friends for dinner there in an hour. At that point, I said, "Can I ask you a question? Are we going to the Coldplay concert!?!" What an AMAZING surprise, I think everyone who's close to us has known for weeks....I on the other hand had NO clue! We walked up and down Broadway and many blocks while we waited to meet our friends so that was my workout! I can tell you now I DIDN'T eat WW friendly...their chips & queso are my favorite! The concert was absolutely incredible. We had great seats and loved Snow Patrol's show, too. The glow in the dark butterflies and yellow bouncy balls made the show really fun. Plus the band is SO interactive and engaging! So thankful to Chris for a wonderful and unexpected date night!
Abundance is...unexpected time with my hubby, great friends and wonderful parents.

DAY 121

First of all, reality just set in...I've been blogging for 121 days! AMAZING! I don't stick to many things so the fact that I'm still committed is pretty wonderful. :)
Our home study meeting went great today and then we decided to take a last minute trip to the ZOO! Someone gave us a pack of free passes...what a blessing! It was the PERFECT day for some outside fun. We got there at 4:30 and they close at 6PM so we booked it and by that I mean we ran/fast walked the whole zoo in an hour! There's my workout for you! Then we let the kids play in the bouncy/playground area for the last 30 minutes. It was such a treat and the kids had a ball.
Afterwards, we headed back to Cool Springs for dinner at my fav...Cracker Barrel (I ate WW friendly) and then we hit the mall. I became a fan of Victoria Secret on Facebook and got a coupon for a free pair of panties so we did a little shopping at Vic Sec and the Disney store.
As always, bedtime stories are so sweet with the kids all cuddled around. So grateful for a wonderful day! Now Chris and I are relaxing and watching a movie together.
Abundance is...sweet moments with my precious family.

DAY 120

I'll make this fairly short since it's SO late! We've been getting our paperwork and stuff together for our first home study visit tomorrow. Woohoo!
My day has been full so there was NO time to get on the treadmill (thanks for hoping Ally!) Eating was ok but not stellar. Not the best blog day either. :)
But I will share an "Abundance" quote.
Abundance is....listening to Brit say the blessing and go on, and on, and on, praying for friends, family and neighbors by name and rattling off all kinds of things to God! Priceless!

DAY 119

Another sweet morning in my closet praying and reading. Work was good and then I had my arm examined by an Orthopedic doctor who said I have nothing to worry about. Praise the Lord! The kids and I had a great evening together playing with Little Peoples and spending a little time with our neighbors. After bath time, we read bedtime stories and I got them down before my friend Laine came over for bible study. She just left so I didn't have a chance to get my workout in today. And it wasn't my best day of eating either. I didn't go overboard but I went over my points.
I do have another praise. We've been waiting for our home study to get under way and didn't think it would happen for a few months. Thankfully, someone contacted us today and will be coming out Friday.
Abundance is...watching my precious little ones play together. Thank you, God, for baby brother.

DAY 118

I started my morning out in my closet...so thankful for some quiet time and prayer early this morning before my day began. Work was productive and then home this afternoon hanging with my precious kiddos. Tonight one of my Russia teammates came to the house so we could start prepping for our woman's study and craft time with the ladies. So excited to see what God has in store! Chris got home and we got the kids down, read bedtime stories, Chris is currently out for a scoot and I just jumped off the treadmill after a 35 minute walk. I've been tracking my points today and really being conscious of everything I put in my mouth!
I got the MRI results back today and there is a nodule on my left forearm so I have an appointment tomorrow to see an Orthopedic doctor. Because I love google, I googled "nodule" and they appear to be harmless, benign lumps. I've been rejoicing, praying and giving thanks all day....in all circumstances.
Abundance is...receiving a homemade craft made by my lovely little girl with so much love!

DAY 117 - continued

Forgot to mention my weigh-in this morning. AGAIN, for the past 4 weeks I maintained the same weight. Good news and bad news. Hoping to get really serious this week!

DAY 117

Happy Monday! It's been a super busy day. Brit had a check-up appt at the ear doctor's this afternoon after work and got a great report. We waited and waited so we were there for awhile. It was past dinnertime so we made a pit stop at Papa John's. We enjoyed it with Mimi and Papa (we usually have family dinner on Tuesdays but had to move it to tonight this week). I only had 1.5 pieces of pizza and a salad with some strawberries. I counted my points today so I'm starting the week off right. Just didn't get my workout in. After Brit got down (at 9:30, it was a late night, we waited up for Daddy and then had a fun time reading bedtime stories with Daddy), my parents called and I'm just now getting off the phone! All in all, a great day!
Abundance is...listening to Brit recite David & Goliath.
Abundance is....the gorgeous evening sky tonight.

DAY 116

I guess I'll title today as the day of movement! We started the morning out at the pool and had a blast. Then I got on the treadmill for 45 minutes (woohoo!) and ran some errands this afternoon with the kids. After bathtime and getting the kids down, I started cleaning and just sat down about 15 minutes ago. Eating wasn't the best but tomorrow I'm looking forward to getting back on the plan.
Abundance is....watching Mary Poppins with my little lady.
Abundance is...watching little man in the pool for the first time, splashing and playing.

DAY 115

Today was a fun family day together! We got out and about for a little bit this afternoon and then had church this evening followed by dinner at Moe's with Mimi and Papa. If it doesn't rain tomorrow, the kids and I are going to make our first visit to Mimi and Papa's pool in the morning. Looking forward to it!
Here comes honesty time...today was another off day regarding eating and working out. I started out eating "good" and then blew it half way through the day so I went "all out" and had a burrito, chips, sour cream and Dr. Pepper at Moe's! BUT, I will say I'm paying for it now. I'm stuffed and as much as I need to get on the treadmill, I don't have it in me tonight. The gross feeling in my tummy and the slight headache I have aren't helping my motivation level.
So, alas, I won't thrown in the towel but I WILL keep trudging on. Forward progress, just keep moving ahead, don't look back.... I chant to myself!
I won't share specifics here, but please continue praying for the adoption process. There's a good chance the tribe will be hearing from us soon via a letter Chris wrote and we're praying it gets in the right hands. Asking for God's continued favor.
Abundance is....reciting 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 with my little lady.
Abundance is....snuggle time and kisses from little man.

DAY 114

It was sweet and quiet in my closet early this morning praying and reading. Work was productive and then we had our DCS meeting. All went pretty well. Plans are in place and we're working toward the adoption (hopefully) later this year. This afternoon, we finished our LAST foster care class...woohoo! We enjoyed dinner at McAlister's and then a stroll through downtown Franklin. We took the kids up on the top of the parking deck to run around for a bit. The view was gorgeous tonight!
Happy to report I got my 30 minute walk in on the treadmill tonight!! I always feel so good afterwards. Eating wasn't the greatest (again) today so my plan is to get back on track with WW tomorrow.
Abundance is...my children when they giggle and belly laugh uncontrollably!

DAY 113

Ok, so I slept from about 9:45PM last night until 8AM! Thank goodness it wasn't a "wash my hair day" because I would NEVER have made it to work by 8:30AM! A wonderful night's rest.
My day was super busy from start to finish. I got things accomplished at work, ran about five errands (got drenched in the rain!), had a sweet hang time with a dear friend while the kids played, made dinner, ran more errands, got the kids down and then just finished Bible Study with my friend, Laine. Chris and I are laying on our bed, catching-up on our days and watching "I AM LEGEND" with Will Smith. We just got to a freaky part so I'm going to keep my eyes on the computer and keep typing!!
I ate better today but still more than I should (although should can be such a shaming word). I had asked Laine if we could walk around my neighborhood the first 30 minutes we hung out (so I could get my workout in) but Chris didn't get home until 10PM so I couldn't leave the house. Come rain or high water, I've GOT to get my workout in tomorrow!!
We have a very important meeting tomorrow with DCS so please keep us in your prayers. Praying for God's continued favor. Little man has ANOTHER ear infection (7 or so in the last year) so he may need tubes. Please pray for his healing, as well.
Abundance is....hearing Britain make-up songs about Jesus and God.
Abundance is...receiving sweet kisses from little man.

DAY 112

This is by the far the EARLIEST I've ever blogged! I'll explain why in the coming entry. I was in the Word early again this morning before the kids arose. I'm so thankful for the quiet moments to listen and pray. Work flew by and then I had a MRI done on a little bump on my left forearm. My doctor doesn't seem concerned (so neither am I) but wanted to get it checked just in case. I got home from work and hung with the kids. Chris had training in Nashville today so he was home "early" for dinner which was a great treat! We watched the kids with my Pilates bands doing all kinds of moves and pulling each other around. Then, we did an early bathtime so we could all get in bed at a decent hour. The last few nights the kids have been up later than normal and I think it shows! Chris is pooped and already in bed and I'm right behind him. Sometimes we just need to slow down.
My "good" friend "George" is visiting again so I've been eating like a crazy woman today. It's a sad excuse but that always seems to be the case on his first day visiting! I really want/need to get on the "mill" downstairs but I'm choosing to rest. My body is still fighting some kind of sinus/allergy infection and I don't want it to escalate.
Abundance is...family bedtime stories reading about David and Goliath.

DAY 111

I started my morning in prayer and in the Word which has been my source of strength as of late. Twas a productive day at work, lots of organizing and such. We hung out with our neighbor friends this afternoon and then had a yummy dinner with Mimi and Papa here. Chris got off earlier than normal tonight and had the great idea to surprise the kids and take them to the Mall carnival for a few rides. Brit was beside herself! The four of us rode the ferris wheel together and then she rode the race car and dumbo the elephant by herself and then Mimi took her on a kid-friendly roller coaster. We all had an amazing time...it couldn't have been a more gorgeous evening.
I MADE myself get on the treadmill at 9:30PM, it's not that I didn't want to, I just really wanted to hang with my hubs on the couch and spend time with him. BUT, I walked for 40 minutes and really enjoyed it. Eating wasn't the greatest again today...thankful tomorrow's a new day.
Abundance is....the delight and wonderment on my little lady's face as she experienced her first trip up on a ferris wheel...priceless.

DAY 110

Oh happy day! So, so grateful for my family day with the kids and Chris. We let Chris sleep in (on his day off!) and then made breakfast in bed (turkey & cheese omelet with cinnamon rolls) and celebrated his new work van & day off by lighting a candle! It was sweet and then we all hung out in our bed laughing and playing. Then we made a Trader Joe's run up to Nashville and then spent the evening with a dear family that had us over for a cookout and volleyball in the backyard. It was so fun!
For my weigh-in, I stayed the same as the last 2 weeks so I'm just maintaining. I ate like crap today EXCEPT I passed up the amazing looking brownies & ice cream at dinner tonight. Chris and I are about to pop in a movie so I'm on day 3 without any workout but I did move and groove (ha!) playing ball tonight for about 25 minutes so I guess that counts a little. :) Oh how I do miss the treadmill!
While the kids were making a fort and playing oh so well together this morning, I was in the Word and journaling.
I bought this amazing little treasure of a book a few years ago after seeing it at my dentist's office, "The Art of Abundance" and highly recommend the purchase. The book is filled with statements that start with "Abundance is....". So I've decided to start writing my own "Abundance is..." statements on my blog everyday with the treasures that are in my world.
Today....abundance is...my almost two-year-old boy learning to bow his head, hold his hands in the praying position and then say Amen!
Abundance is....my children holding onto each leg giving leg hugs!
From the book: Abundance is....having enough for today.
Sweet dreams friends...

DAY 109

My day in a nutshell: Quiet time (1 Thes 5:16-18 about God's will for us); grocery shopping with the kiddos; coloring; lots of kleenex; sweet hang time with our community group (kids and adults). I've been battling a sinus headache most of the day and feel a bit sick to my stomach tonight so another day with NO workout...urgh! I did manage to eat pretty good...passing up a piece of key lime pie was HARD!
Exciting about the day off tomorrow with my wonderful family!

DAY 108

Waking up with sinus/allergy gunk is NO FUN! I think sitting out on the patio at Pei Wei last night set me off. I've been sniffing and hacking all day. But we did have some fun mixed in. Brit and I went to one of her sweet friend's 5th b'day party (I only had one piece of pizza, but wanted more!) at Let It Shine and we had a blast! Such an incredible place! Hope to enroll Brit someday. Then we got to hangout with our neighbors, go to Sat nite service at Church and met up with Chris' cousin and wife at Jason's for dinner (had the salad bar).
I did spend some time in the Word while the kids were eating breakfast but no workout today. I don't feel up to it so I gave myself a grace day. :) Everybody needs those! We're celebrating the fact that Chris gets a new work van tomorrow WITH AIR CONDITIONING! YAY! And he gets Monday off! :)
Calling it a night....

DAY 107

What an AMAZING day from start to finish! God's been urging me to CHOOSE to get up earlier so I can spend some alone time with Him, first thing in the mornings. I actually did it this morning! I awoke early before anyone was stirring (not even a mouse! ha...just had to throw that in!), lit a candle and enjoyed a sweet time in my closet...just me and Jesus. Sitting amongst the plethora of stinky shoes (my feet get sweaty, a "blessing" I was born with!), it reminded me of how Jesus sees my sin...stinky, gross and not so fun to be around.
At work, I got a lot accomplished and then worked some on my Dad's book. He's writing a book that may one day get published and since my folks don't own (or want to own) a computer AND since I LOVE typing, I jumped at the chance to serve him by getting his book into electronic format. The section I typed today was part of my Dad's personal journey and upbringing. When I came to the entry about my Pa Bell's (my Dad's Father) death, the tears were abounding. My Pa Bell didn't know Jesus up until a few days before he had a heart attack so reading the poem that changed his life, his story and his heart was so touching. I will forever keep this poem in my family and share it as it's a testimony to my Pa Bell's recreation in Christ. These were unexpected tears giving me more of a sense of my heritage and how Jesus moves in others.
Brit's dance recital was a trip! She did an AMAZING job (considering they haven't been able to practice the last 3 weeks because the gym was flooded and they had to replace all of the flooring). It was precious to watch those little ladies jive and groove and wiggle and bow and rock n roll!
After dance, we finished our second to last foster care class with our wonderful trainer. And then enjoyed a great evening outside on the patio at Pei Wei with some of our good friends. It was the perfect night for outdoor seating. The sky over Franklin captured me on the drive home.
To top off the day, I just got finished with a 30 minute walk on the treadmill and will be spending some quality time with my hubs when he gets back from his late night scooter ride.
So thankful for a wonderful day!

DAY 106

Another late night! I had a very productive day at work followed by some hang time with my amazing kids this afternoon before I rushed off to another Russia team meeting. I do a Bible Study with a sweet friend every Thursday night after the kids go down so she came over early to babysit and then we met, prayed and finished up our study in Proverbs. I'm just finishing-up the dishes and the house is quiet. Chris was able to get out for some hang time with one of his close guy friends.
Needless to say, I didn't get my workout in today. And I had the munchies tonight so I tanked tonight.
Praying for another productive day tomorrow! Brit has her dance recital...YAY!!

DAY 105

This will be a quick entry as it's late and I'm fading fast. Snippets of my day include: gorgeous day; actually busy at work; had fun at Brit's end of the school year picnic lunch at the park; great dinner and hang time with the kids and one of my best friends; hour and a half of foster videos and homework with Chris; no time for my workout!
Onward....

DAY 104...continued

Thanks to Ally for her encouragement...I just finished my 20 minute Pilate DVD! And I am thankful I did it! :)

DAY 104

Today was a quiet, peaceful day in the office. My boss is in Africa for two weeks so I'm working on projects and enjoying the peaceful setting. I inhaled a large bowl of strawberries and blueberries at lunch....um, yummy...lots of antioxidant rich fruits!

I hung outside with the kids for a bit this afternoon and then enjoyed our weekly Tuesday night dinner with Mimi and Papa. After our spaghetti, we watched Idol only to be totally turned off by Adam AGAIN! So hoping Kris wins!

The kids are down and the house is quiet. Chris is working late. I typically don't go down to the dungeon to workout when he's not here because there's no chance of hearing the kids down there, especially with the sound of the treadmill and TV going. So, I'm sitting here debating on Pilates or not. Will see if I can get my butt into action!

DAY 103

As is the case most nights, I'm just jumping off the treadmill and thankful for a little alone time to focus on strengthening my body. I weighed in this morning and am excited to say I didn't gain and maintained from last week's weigh-in.

I worked, got my immunizations for my trip to Russia later this summer and had a fun afternoon with the kids. Chris got home "earlier" than most nights so it was great having him home and doing our bedtime routine together with the kids. The embrace they gave him when he came up the stairs was priceless....one kid on each leg giving him bear hugs!

The fire detector in little man's room kept going off in the middle of the night last night so we are zonked. Heading to bed shortly....but I did want to share the below devotional I read last week. If I've already shared it in a previous blog, please forgive me. :)

Devotional from My Utmost for His Highest
Take the Initiative
. . . add to your faith virtue . . . —2 Peter 1:5

"Add means that we have to do something. We are in danger of forgetting that we cannot do what God does, and that God will not do what we can do. We cannot save nor sanctify ourselves— God does that. But God will not give us good habits or character, and He will not force us to walk correctly before Him. We have to do all that ourselves. We must "work out" our "own salvation" which God has worked in us ( Philippians 2:12 ). Add means that we must get into the habit of doing things, and in the initial stages that is difficult. To take the initiative is to make a beginning— to instruct yourself in the way you must go.

Beware of the tendency to ask the way when you know it perfectly well. Take the initiative— stop hesitating— take the first step. Be determined to act immediately in faith on what God says to you when He speaks, and never reconsider or change your initial decisions. If you hesitate when God tells you to do something, you are being careless, spurning the grace in which you stand. Take the initiative yourself, make a decision of your will right now, and make it impossible to go back. Burn your bridges behind you, saying, "I will write that letter," or "I will pay that debt"; and then do it! Make it irrevocable.

We have to get into the habit of carefully listening to God about everything, forming the habit of finding out what He says and heeding it. If, when a crisis comes, we instinctively turn to God, we will know that the habit has been formed in us. We have to take the initiative where we are, not where we have not yet been."

DAY 102

I woke up this morning DETERMINED to have some quiet time even though the morning was flying by. So I sat at the kitchen table while Brit did her crafts and Wakia napped. I was truly uplifted when I read the below verses. They seemed to come alive to me because I've been feeling shame and guilt for the way I've been eating the past few days. The highlights that stick out to me are FREEDOM, do not lose heart, and renewed day by day.

2 Cor 3:17
"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit."

2 Cor 4:1-2
"We do not lose heart. Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways, we do not use deception, nor do we distort the Word of God."

2 Cor 4:16
"...inwardly we are being renewed day by day."

The kids and I enjoyed a great afternoon with sweet friends and then had a fun block party in our neighborhood. It was great weekend with lots of yummy food that I inhaled!

I've got to kick it up a notch or I'm just going to continue in this same pattern over and over. Anyone want to threaten me or something? I desperately need and want to stick to my Weight Watchers plan because I know it works!

The dreaded weigh-in is tomorrow!

DAY 101

I missed my entry last night because I was in bed before 9PM with a migraine! URGH! Yesterday was a fun organizational day with a friend and then dinner with her sweet family and mine. We had an all day CPR and Medication Administration class today and then met up with the family tonight at Jason's Deli.
I missed my workouts yesterday and today and haven't counted points the last two days.
Not much else to report!
Calling it a night...

DAY 99

Today was an utter loss in terms of eating and working out. I have Bible Study with a friend in a few minutes so I won't be able to get my walk in. Thankful that I've gotten to walk every day since Sunday...that's a rarity! Not sure why I've been eating like a pig today but I've felt very emotional for some reason. I'm giving myself some grace and I'll pull myself back up tomorrow but it's still discouraging.
Thank goodness it's Friday tomorrow!
Slugging along....

DAY 98

'Twas another gorgeous day! I had to order Moe's for our staff board meeting today and am so proud to say I didn't eat one bite! Although I wanted to pump the cheese queso dip through my veins!! My boss did treat me to a half sweet/half unsweet tea from Sonic and I had a coffee lite Frap from Starbucks for lunch so I didn't feel deprived at all.
The kids and I played outside again this afternoon...enjoying the sun while it lasts. We were sad to see our favorite American Idol, Danny Gokey, go home tonight. :(
Just jumped off the treadmill (35 minute walk) and I'm heading upstairs to hang with Chris and work on our foster class homework for Friday.
My legs are feel strong and the flab is starting to tone!! :)

DAY 97

What a gorgeous day! We spent the afternoon outside again playing and walking around the neighborhood and then had a "Fancy Nancy" dinner party with Mimi and Papa tonight. We all dressed up in our "fancy" clothes...even Papa found a few accessories to "dress-up" his look. Mimi was beautiful in her flowing dress and scarf. Brit's fancy clothes didn't stay on long but we had fun doing it!
I drank tons of water today and got my 30 minute walk in on the treadmill tonight. WW is coming along pretty good. :)
Sitting on the couch watching American Idol with my hubs....more tomorrow!

DAY 96

I'm a sweaty, treadmill fool right now but I got my 35 minute walk in!! And I managed to do 125 crunches. Plus, I'm happy to report that I counted all my points today and I'm on track! I did gain 1 lb since last week but I'm actually really thankful it wasn't more. I ALWAYS put on a few pounds when I go on vacation and I definitely didn't eat the best last week....excited it wasn't a big gain.
We spent the late afternoon with the neighbor kids outside on the trampoline and in the wagon. Then, Brit and I dressed-up like Fancy Nancy for dinner (at home) tonight and had fun being all dolled up!
Ready to kick some butt this week and drop some more pounds!

*Check-out Fancy Nancy here...we're just getting into her and only have one book so far but it's wonderful!
http://www.harpercollinschildrens.com/harperchildrens/kids/gamesandcontests/features/fancynancybooks/

DAY 95

I got to spend the day with my amazing children! We cleaned (Brit loves to help with the vacuuming and dusting!) and organized most of the day and then spent the evening with our community group. It was a gorgeous night so we made smores (I only ate a few graham crackers!) and played in the back yard. And I'm just getting in from a late night grocery run. It's so much quicker and easier to do it late night without the kids and crowds.
I was able to squeeze in a 25 minute walk on the treadmill. I'm learning to MAKE the time because as my good friend Allison says, "I'm worth it!"
Weigh-in tomorrow, not sure how that will go because I've been off more than on this week. Now that family's gone and the Amish Friendship bread is out of the house, I'll be back on WW full force starting tomorrow morning.
Looking forward to the week ahead!

DAY 94

Did anyone see the sunset over Franklin tonight? It was breathtaking! We caught glimpses of it on our way out of Cracker Barrel and on the drive home. My family took Mimi (Chris' mom) and I there after church (it's one of our favorite spots) for Mother's Day. It was a wonderful evening!
I just jumped off the treadmill (woohoo!) after a 40 minute walk (burned 400 calories). Even though it's been nearly a week since I was on it last and I haven't eaten the greatest, my body's metabolism has increased because I'm still fitting into pants I haven't worn in 2 years. It's a wonderful feeling!
Excited to celebrate Mother's Day with my two precious kiddos!!

DAY 93

Ok so we waited (not intentionally) until the night before our foster care class to watch the 1.5 video and do our homework. Thus, the LATE night entry. It's been a great day with family. And this evening was gorgeous here in Middle TN. Our feast at Buca Di Beppo was just what I expected, amazingly delicious. I did pretty good there, mostly just sampling the dishes. I filled up on salad and did enjoy the bread & oil. On WW, they encourage you to have 1-2 TBSP of oil a day, something I hardly ever get in my "diet". Ready to get back on the treadmill tomorrow and really kick my WW back into high gear.
Sweet dreams...

DAY 92

After working all day (ok, so I get off at 3:30 but it still FEELS like the whole day), it was so great coming home to the kids and heading outside for some late afternoon, pre-dinner fun. With Chris' long hours, we never know when he'll get home so I'm getting used to just going with the flow. We had a fun time on a neighbors trampoline, took them for a little wagon ride, played outback, made dinner, painted nails (painted Brit's and she painted mine, clear of course!), gave the kids baths, got little man down and the best part was wearing glow in the dark bracelets outside and reading "Fancy Nancy" to Brit by the streetlight! It was about 9:15 when all was said and done so I decided to go ahead and bake some cinnamon streusel bread for breakfast since my parent's are here. Any prep work I can do at night is oh so helpful.
It's 9:45 and Chris is just now heading home. His shift is SUPPOSED to end at 6:30 but it's a guessing game from day to day (last night he didn't get home until after midnight!!). For whatever reason, it might be loneliness or plain ole sabotage, I engulfed a box of caramel corn tonight. It's embarrassing to admit but I want to be honest. It's freeing to release my "secrets" even though it's really hard to put myself out there. I even felt so great this morning when I got into yet another pair of pants I haven't worn in a LONG TIME. I miss my hubs and when I'm emotional, I head straight for food. Needless to say, that box of caramel corn probably took up all my points for the rest of the month! And tomorrow night is going to be a struggle because we're going to Buca Di Beppo for dinner....only the most amazing family style Italian restaurant around!
Eating out of emotion and eating so much definitely took me back in time to the shameful feelings I've known all my life and yet haven't felt much of at all since I started the 90 in 09 quest a few months back. I need prayers and the will power to keep on the straight and narrow.
Thanks for taking the time to follow my quest....the good, bad and the ugly.

DAY 91

Hola! Back from the lake house and feeling so relaxed even though keeping up with 2 kids and a dog is hard work. But, I had plenty of help! The setting was gorgeous and it was such a blessing to get away for a few days. Needless to say, I ate well. My mom and her sisters love to cook and serve the family so we ate our fair share of deliciousness. I will say I'm SO thankful I gave up desserts BEFORE the trip. They feasted on fudge, brownies, cookies, cake and a plethora of other goodies. I did allow myself some of the most AMAZING caramel popcorn I've ever tasted. Dad said since corn is a veggie, it wasn't technically a dessert!! Ha, there I go justifying again. :)
When I weighed-in Monday morning, I had dropped 2 lbs since last week. And I'm wearing pants I haven't worn since 2007. We took a family walk last night but I didn't get in my Pilates workouts like I had hoped. The living quarters although spacious, were a little cramped in regards to Pilates moves in front of everyone.
Getting back on it tomorrow. I love feeling healthier and want to continue on faithfully.
Ready for a fresh start tomorrow...

DAY 88

I'm happy to say I was in the Word first thing this morning AND I got my butt on the treadmill this afternoon! Yay! It felt so good to start my day in prayer and to get back on. I walked for 40 minutes and burned 350 calories.
Sadly, the next 2 days I won't have access to a computer while we're at the lake house with my family so the end of my 90 commitment blog will come on Wednesday night when I'm back home. I can't believe these 90 days have already come and gone! Again, for those of you who have been following my blog, I will continue to blog daily as I seek to live a healthier life - spiritually, physically and emotionally.
I'm taking my Pilates DVD and resistance bands on vacation in hopes of at least getting some form of cardio in.
Off to finish packing!

DAY 87

It was a fun shopping/hang day with my sis and then with the family tonight. I seriously need your prayers! No workout and I didn't count points today. Hear me when I say I DON'T WANT to give up on my progress just because I'm on vacation but I haven't been doing great the past few days. I did buy a few fun new tops and leggings today that make for great inspiration.
I'm so grateful for your support and prayers!
Hoping to get on the treadmill tomorrow.
Needing a little push....

DAY 86

We just got home from Opry Mills and I truly feel like I got my 30 minute walk in! I was high tailing it through the mall especially when I found out Brit had stuffed about 10 shoes in our cart and we had to fly back to the store and apologize profusely! My little shoplifter. It was HILARIOUS! :)

I resisted ordering fries and chicken nuggets at Chick-fil-a tonight. Brit & I tried a new Weight Watchers recipe and made chocolate peanut butter smoothie. It was actually really good!

Here's a quote and two scriptures and excerpts that have really inspired me this week.

My friend Allison put this quote on her blog yesterday...thanks Allison!
"Success is something that you earn, not something that you own."

From dailyverse.com....
Hebrews 10:35
"Therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward.
So many of us let the weight of shame, fear and regret overshadow the greatness of who Christ has created us to be. Be intentional to remind yourself of and focus on the truth about you - not the lies that so easily seek audience with our hearts and minds. Confidence, in part, comes from knowing that you're the vessel and His Spirit is at the core of who you are. Rest in that, and quiet the voices that suggest otherwise."


From My Utmost of His Highest...
Gracious Uncertainty
. . . it has not yet been revealed what we shall be . . . —1 John 3:2

"Our natural inclination is to be so precise— trying always to forecast accurately what will happen next— that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We think that we must reach some predetermined goal, but that is not the nature of the spiritual life. The nature of the spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty. Consequently, we do not put down roots. Our common sense says, "Well, what if I were in that circumstance?" We cannot presume to see ourselves in any circumstance in which we have never been.

Certainty is the mark of the commonsense life— gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, not knowing what tomorrow may bring. This is generally expressed with a sigh of sadness, but it should be an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. As soon as we abandon ourselves to God and do the task He has placed closest to us, He begins to fill our lives with surprises. When we become simply a promoter or a defender of a particular belief, something within us dies. That is not believing God — it is only believing our belief about Him. Jesus said, ". . . unless you . . . become as little children . . ." (Matthew 18:3 ). The spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, just uncertain of what He is going to do next. If our certainty is only in our beliefs, we develop a sense of self-righteousness, become overly critical, and are limited by the view that our beliefs are complete and settled. But when we have the right relationship with God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy. Jesus said, ". . . believe also in Me" (John 14:1 ), not, "Believe certain things about Me". Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come in— but you can be certain that He will come. Remain faithful to Him."

DAY 85

Today was pretty uneventful. But the night got really exciting when my sis and her hubs arrived! I was going to twist her arm to do Pilates with me but I've been battling another migraine since late this afternoon. The caffeine and excedrin migraine pills aren't touching it. So, a not so successful day with the workouts or sticking strictly to my points.
I tell ya, nothing's ever easy!! :)
Signing off...

DAY 84

JUST finished 20 minutes of Pilates and 125 crunches. My legs burned a little more than usual tonight so that's a good thing. Probably because I haven't been on the treadmill in a few days. Oh, I miss you treadmill! I'm sitting in the middle of a pile of laundry that needs to be folded and still have a few other household management items that need to get done before bed. I had a Russia team meeting tonight which went great, it just made for an extra long day.
When "George" is in town for 5 days (ladies you can guess who I'm talking about!), I eat the world. So today was a day of constant eating. I wasn't going to MAKE time for Pilates but so thankful I did!!
Starting tomorrow through the 8th will be more difficult for me to stay on my workout plan because family will be in town but I'm determined to at least do Pilates as much as I can.
Tomorrow, April 30th, marks the day back in 2007 when I started my very successful Weight Watchers journey the first time around. All I have to do to get inspiration is look back at pictures, thumb through the oodles of "skinny" pants in my closet and think about how amazing I felt when I lost those 23 lbs. I truly felt more free than I ever had before in my life. Great inspiration and encouragement for the current quest I'm on!
Sweet dreams....

DAY 83

Another gorgeous day! The kids and I had fun on our friend's trampoline this afternoon and took a little walk in the woods and up and down the street. Sad to hear rain is on the way for the next few days.
I've been an eating machine today and didn't have it in me to workout tonight. Today was a wash but a new day's coming and I'm going to keep my head up.
Night, night.

DAY 82

I'm up way too late so I'll make this short and sweet. Gained a stinkin pound since last week. Can I just chalk it up to muscle?? :) My clothes are fitting better but I know I'm retaining a little water because it's just that time again so while I'm sad about the unsuccessful weigh-in, I'm not going to let it keep me down.
No time for the treadmill tonight but I did do 20 minutes of Pilates and 125 crunches.
Pushing on....

DAY 81

My workout was a bit of a fluke today. Brit's really into my Pilates videos lately, I think it's because of the resistance bands (I have 5 and they're all bright colors). Even baby boy got down on the floor and lifted his legs when I put the DVD on! Ha! It's so cute to watch both of them move around and try to mimic Maury Windsor's moves! So I was able to do 15 minutes of Pilates followed by 150 crunches. Chris still hasn't made it home (his shift technically ends at 4:30 on Sundays) so I probably won't make it on the treadmill tonight.
I took the kids to Pinkerton for a picnic lunch and some good ole playtime outdoors. We had a blast and even saw some good friends there. So thankful for this gorgeous weather!
Tomorrow is weigh-in day so I'm hoping for the best. We'll see!
Ready for the new week ahead! My sister and bro-in-law come in Thursday night and we can't wait!!